I hope you’re having a good day! Or do I?
You know I do.
In all honesty, I would describe my days like a rainbow, some parts are light and bright, some parts are a bit darker and I can get discouraged when it feels like there’s no end in sight!
Have you ever woken up and just gone “WHY!?” in your head, referring to thoughts like, “It’s too early.” or some variation, all the way up to, “Ugh… I hate my life!”?
Well, I have.
I used to regularly.
Ok! It was just most days… For a lot more of my life than I care to admit.
If I really think about it, I can pinpoint it back to when I would angrily be woken up by one of my older sisters to get ready for school. Those days are long since passed and I’ve integrated my demons, but back then, on the outside I was usually genuinely happy, but on the inside…
I was not “happy”.
And so it went. I didn’t feel terrible. I just didn’t feel awesome, either. I felt like a bonus piece in a puzzle. And not just any unheard of puzzle piece, but one that could fit into other puzzles, which would get confusing for me. Everywhere I went, I was accepted, but I felt like I was in the wrong puzzle.
After well over a decade of self discovery and research, I started to realize that I was no longer a maleable puzzle piece and that led me to the fantastic realization that not only, did I not care where I “fit in” anymore, but that now I want to create an amazing, conscious, humaine, ethical, wonderful puzzle of my very own 😀
We are but a collective conscious of the sum of our total experiences meeting up at this very point.
So, in the words of some of my ancestors, to you I say “Salut!” For this is not a hello or goodbye, but a good day!